Monday, November 15, 2010

can i go for holidays?

Last week, one of the night, i was having a night chat with my boys before bed. We will talk about anything, what is happening at school today, what are they doing today, then you know me bad, i decide to "tease" them by asking them, " Can Mummy Go For A Five Days Holidays?"

They look at me and ask........

They: What is holidays?

mummy: holidays is sit aeroplane and go somewhere.

Cruz: then me lei?

mummy: you and kor kor stay at home with daddy.

Cruz: who will sleep with us?

mummy: daddy will sleep with you .

Cruz: I want mummy to sleep with me, daddy always go kai kai.

While Cruz talk, he is in his sobbing tone and Fearles keep quiet while Cruz talk to me, then suddenly i saw Fearles wipping his tear. Omg! Just a "small joke" and i make two of my boys sad. I feel so guilty. I told them, i am just jokking with them, i will bring them holiday together with me one.

Cruz: i don't want mummy go and sit aeroplane, i want mummy stay with me, if i naughty, mummy can beat me, but mummy cannot go and sit aeroplane.

How sad to hear that, they rather want me to beat them if they naughty, rather than i go for a holiday.

You know what, three days later, our co announced we are going to have our first company trip next month!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Now shall i said, my dream has come true??

I have not tell the boys yet, but have told hub about it. He said, just go, anyway it just 3 days 2 nights, and he can care the boys....

*sigh* I need a holidays, but i have not left behind my boys ever since they are born. :(

23 comments:

Inspired Momx1 said...

Just go, mommy.. You deserve a break! I know how close the boys are to you from the conversation.. I've been trying to talk my boy into staying a week at the in-laws.. and you know what's his response.. Don't want.. I know you want to go somewhere without me. *sigh*

LittleLamb said...

Time to let go n u go enjoy yourself to the max...

U know, your last sentence made me feel so guilty cos u never left the boys alone since birth.. for me, i hv left philip many times....sob sob sob

eugene said...

I like this from Cruz, " when i am naughty.mommy can beat me"

take care ya

yvonne said...

I never tried starting this type of conversation. My girl is so attached to me and even questions me if I pick her up a little later than usual from our babysitter. I think she would suggests, "we go sit aeroplane together, ok?" But taking a break means releasing tension - kinda hard to release tension with children around, eh?

prince n princess mum said...

wah.. can beat you but cannot sit aeroplane.. kiddos talk

Alice Law said...

LOL, they are really mommy's boys!^-^ Don't worry, they will be doing fine in daddy's good hand! Enjoy your trip ya!;D

Have a nice day!

suituapui said...

That's the bonding between you and the boys, never mind if you beat them...as they know it is out of your love for them. My daughter was like that - she hated it when I had to travel...

coffeesncookies said...

i think you can do it lor.. but with lots of guilt. don't worry since they are in safe hands.. another mom told me today. do it once.. " next time braver already " :)

enjoy yr trip to the max.. let us know if you mm fong sam n want us to go check on your boys :)

reanaclaire said...

They will be alright in good hands, so nothing to worry about.. :) do go for your holiday.. that is not an everyday affair..u need it! :p

cleffairy said...

Makes me wanna take 'MC' from being a mum for a while too. Been some time since I last take vacation too. :(

mommy to chumsy said...

sigh...i know how you are feeling. i've never left ashley behind too. i'm sure you will enjoy it though you'll miss the boys. after this, next time will be easier for you....hehehehehehehe

Annie Q said...

Inspired Momx1: hahahhaa, kids are smart nowadays ya? Did you ever go holidays w/o Ian?

LittleLamb: Don't feel guilty, you're different case. Maybe like you said, i have to start let go a bit?

eugene: Now kids sure know how to use the word to "melt" our heart and leave me no heart to left them behind.

Yvonne: My boys too. Sometime i go out dinner with friends and come back a bit late, they will ask, why i come back so late, if i come back after they sleep, they will ask, you didn't come back last night? Why so long only come back? :(

prince n princess mum: hahahha, can beat them but i cannot go sit aeroplane, means they rather want me to punish them instead of i am going away and left them behind.

Alice Law: *take a deep breath* Hope i can enjoy and won't worry so much.

STP: Now make me believe, boys close to mum and girls close to daddy? But i believe kids always close to the one that spent more time with them.

Elaine: hahahhahah...YES! You got me! I can do it but with lots of guilt! Hope i will enjoy myself and not to worry too much. There is always the "first time". Thanks for the offering, i think 3 days is still ok, not so bad la. :P

reanaclaire: Thanks Claire. Yes, this is not an everyday affair!

Cleffairy: Yea, i understand you. I got no holidays for 5 years, then only last year start go holidays with my boys, but on my own, it had been so long ago. Hope a short break can be a good recharge for myself.

mommy to chumsy: *shake hand* You understand me!! First time always the hard decision to make.

Bryan and Brandon's Mama said...

GO!!!!!!!! The more you go, the easier it becomes :):)

mNhL said...

Aww...both are so closed to you. And this decision is so hard to make. Half feeling excited while another half feeling worried the boys might missed you. Tell the boys you are going to WORK and won';t be back so soon. Hope that helps?

Nisha said...

aww.. they love u soo much hey dun't want u to go... willing to be punished rather than not having you.. soooo sweet... u can explain to them that mommy is not going because mommy dunt love u.. mommy is going with friends and will come back with lots of pressies.... hehe

Inspired Momx1 said...

Annie: Oh, yes. Always with hubby where we got to enjoy going on holidays during off-peak seasons but that was before Ian goes to Primary 1. Hahaha.. Now time to retreat loh with his ailing grandparents and busy school schedule.

slavemom said...

The hubs edi give the green light, GO! :) I oso long to go for a hol w/o the kids. An all-girls hol wud be nice, so hubs can stay home to watch the kids. hahaha

smallkucing said...

Just go. Sooner or later they have to learn to be with your hubi

Mommy Ling said...

Wow..dream comes true jor!! Enjoy ur holidays to the max.

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2ma said...

i think it is ok to go for your holidays. if the boys misses you, they can always call you :D

it is time to let go & enjoy yourself!

jacss said...

hey...while the tears & cries were indeed heartbreaking, you really deserve a break annie!
since the huby is supportive, i think u shd harden yr heart & JUST GO!! get them lots of goodies after u return & u'll see them smile again...hehe
good luck

IMMomsDaughter said...

Awwww.....Annie, I know it must be heartbreaking to hear your boys say that. But sometimes we do need to give ourselves a break and 3 days will fly by very fast.

And I agree with the rest, buy lots of stuff for them to console them (and make yourself feel less guilty). LOL.